I
think when people are from smaller communities, they
tend to not have the information that some people are
different from most. I have been silent for almost 10
years, hiding myself in my XL shirts and my black pants.
No one wanted to hear me or even listen, this just sucked
for me. Finally one day months before my dad had passed
he told me he saw a show on the dish, our regular TV
has no room for specials. These shows were from the states.
Wow this was so exciting for me...even more so coming
from my dad. The man who never spoke two words to me,
at one time. I was the girl in the middle and mom dealt
with me. Today I cannot cry about this when I talk about
it. Most of you know I lost my father last year in November.
He sure had lots to say to the boys let me tell you.
Not...
This
had made my dreams come true. Wow family that said this
out loud, wow. This was big. Someone else had a huge
part of my start to this long awaiting story. You all
may know her she is a good friend from my home town.
Her name is Sandra, no need for last names you all know
her. I have not shared this with her before. But she
has given me hope, in so many ways.
Sorry
I had to dry my tears. Sandra has been an eye opener
to me if she can I can. Someone from my home town, wow
-- that is two of us. I only wish Sandra had not moved
away so that now I could use her everyday from here on
out -- having no support near you is most difficult.
Don't get me wrong my family is on my side.
Thank
God, seeing Dr. Amson, last September has given me some
options for getting the help and positive feed back that
I so needed. I will survive. I just want it to be tomorrow.
The long wait is the most painful, only because I am
hundreds of miles away from all of the action. I do thank
God every day I am alive. I also am very thankful for
Sandra, the friends on the website, reading postings
from other WLS people is the most help any one can get,
because of the long distance away from them and it is
like talking to some one right next door.. I almost love
my self I just need to be first in my life. I need to
learn how to just say no to everyone around me. I am
a mother of three and they just love me so much, not
that they can't leave me alone.
Finally
after the loss of my father, life has changed forever.
My whole family has many more needs and wants, the sad
thing is that it has just brought me back in to my deep
depression - that just sucks. I want to live. I want
to be happy. I want to be the best I can be. For everyone
who needs me still. Anyone who cannot make their appointments,
please feel free to call me -- I can get there in only
about 13 to 14 hours. OK. I still have that funny bone
in me. That's why they call me bones head.
Love
you all. Thank you Dr. Amson and staff for doing all
you can for the world of happy chubby people all over
the world.
p.s.
Thank you Sandra you are the all of it all. God bless
hope you enjoy.
