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I
suffer from high blood pressure, knees that are wearing
out and the beginnings of hip problems where I am halted
from walking too far or too fast. I need the use of a
shopping cart when I go shopping just so that I have
some support to take a load off. Pain is with me constantly.
The doctor tells me that almost all of my problems are
weight-related and he knows what diets I have tried and
failed at.
I
do not work out of the home now. Who would hire me? I
am so big now that I find excuses not to go out and socialize
except for a few people. So yes, I believe there is a
depression setting in. I try my best to be positive and
always put a smile on my face. It doesn’t always
work. I have in the past few years lost two of my siblings,
one in a motorcycle accident and one with a brain aneurysm.
I, once the middle child, am now the oldest. My fear
is that I will be next unless I get this surgery soon.
I am too young to die. I have too much to live for. I
need help. I need this surgery.
I
have changed my eating patterns and am trying to get
my exercise in. I have done my research and know that
with the surgery there are risks and that the surgery
is a tool that I will need to work with it to make it
a success. I know I can do this but with the waitlists,
every day is one more day that I have to struggle. I
see this surgery as a lifeline not as a magic bullet,
but a chance to make the rest of my life more rewarding
and productive, free of pain and medications. I am waiting
my turn. I just wish it would hurry up (it is such a
long wait). |