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My
Story
CM - Sooke, August 2008
WHY....................................
This letter is to solidify, in my mind, why I want to have the weight loss
surgery and why I hate the way I am. I am obese!
I have had a weight problem all my life. I have tried, it seems, a bazillion
diets. Some worked for a while, some didn’t. I always gained the weight back and
then some. Five and a half years ago I had a spinal cord injury that has left me
as an incomplete paraplegic. I am not able to do the things I use to do like
curling, playing fastball, going for nice long walks on the beach or anywhere
else, getting down on the floor and playing with little ones, even the sport I
love the most, swimming is difficult for me to do now. Being able to get into
and out of a regular bathtub would be nice. My problem isn’t just the SCI but
the enormous amount of weight I’ve packed on. I’m able to do deep water Aqua
Fit, thank goodness! My self esteem has taken a real kick in the pants because
of all this weight. I hate it! I want to be able to walk more comfortably using
just one cane instead of two canes or my walker. I know I’ll never be able to
walk and do all the things I use to but I want to sleep better, get in and out
of bed easier, get in and out of a chair easier, fly in an airplane without the
discomfort and embarrassment of needing two seats. I want to look in the mirror
at myself with pride and liking. I don’t like myself as I am. I want to be able
to round dance again. I want to be able to walk around my home without the aid
of a cane or walker, I use to be able to but since I’ve put all this weight on I
can’t. I do not want to end up completely in a wheelchair! I would love to have
a lasting relationship but I know it will never happen with the way I am and
look now. I am in pain all the time. Sometimes worst than other times. Getting
rid of this weight will certainly help reduce this I hope. I know this will mean
a life style change, that’s OK, I’m willing to do whatever it takes and whatever
is in my power to make it work. I go to a great support group and I know they
will help me as much as they can but I also know the biggest task is mine.
Thank you for being here and supporting me.
CM Sooke, BC
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